This isn’t my first dating blog. My last one started while I was just graduating college, my friend and I joint together as single ladies to write up posts, and I’d just gotten out of the most serious relationship I’d ever been in.
We’d only been together for a year when we called it quits but we called it quits when we were about to get engaged. To be fair I’d also just graduated college and my life was changing rapidly.
We loved our story and if I’m being honest I still do. It was a fairy tale and everything was centered around coincidences and serendipities, my favorite. I can still tell you the exact moment I knew I was in love with him.
After our break up for the first year we still spoke and ahem got into bed with each other quite a bit. Over time as our lives changed it was less and less but every once in awhile we’d pop back in.
Last Christmas was rough, my nieces lost their dad to overdose on Christmas Eve and the next few weeks were a whirlwind and he really did try to be there for me. Cut to March where we get into an argument over something I wasn’t happy about and he blocks me, now this isn’t the first time I was blocked, and quite frankly I think it’s immature.
This is about the time I guess I should tell you about some of those coincidences. We met when I was in college at my littles house party. I don’t remember it because I was drunk plain and simple. He asked them for my number, they told him no out of respect for me but that this was my full name, he looks me up on Facebook and realizes we have a lot more mutual friends than just them. Including his family. Who live in a different state. He messages me going hey how do you know them and we’ll it’s because I grew up with them when I was a teen and we went to school together. Turns out while we were both living 350 miles from where we’d grown up somehow we’d found each other.
I tell you this because quite frankly blocking me is the dumbest thing you can do. I know your family and if I wanna go crazy bitch I can go and show up at their door or have them tell you to contact me. Also blocking me on Facebook? What do you think I don’t have your number? I do.
Fortunately I’m not a crazy bitch and I didn’t do any of that, but there were a few times over the year when I wanted to contact him and being blocked I felt I couldn’t. So when all of a sudden just a week before what would have been our five year anniversary he pops out of nowhere sends me a friend request and messages I just had to do an eye roll.
And I decided I was done. I didn’t accept it and I ignored the messages. But did that really give me satisfaction? I don’t know. Last night I was thinking about how I’d just like to snoop on his page to be quite honest. And then bam, I woke up to another friend request. And then the coincidence wheels start turning. And now I’m left unsure of what I want to do.